Chaos Tamer
I love this post I found this morning on Instagram:
I’ve often found myself torn between my mind’s competing interests. Recently I figured out that at those moments, THIS is what I need to do: “pursue myself”. Become better, healthier, happier…all those things make for a better life. Much more so than simply getting some promotion or a new job.
Anyway, I wish a happy Friday to you all! May you move closer to your dreams.
This journey into web development has plenty of moments of euphoria when I “get it”, and plenty of wanting to scream “I’m such an idiot”. Success is simply stepping forward after each one, learning and growing.
Always seek out hope
Then our end will be better
Beyond what we guess
Moving through my life’s various trials in constantly struck by how often the results don’t match my predictions. At times, my conceptualization wasn’t even close. The best results achieve when I abandoned expectations and acted. Simply moved forward. Even if the end isn’t clear, the next step often is.
This morning I woke early. It was not planned (generally isn’t).
I brain-dumped on how I could be managing all my projects better. All the things I think I could do better.
I realized how weird it might be to get excited about this.
Remember: I’m focused on growth. I don’t want to be focused in maintaining an illusion of perfection. If there are no challenges in my life, I’m not challenging myself. I’m not growing. I have no interest In staying in that state. Now, I admit that there’s something to be said for a stresses existence. And there are times I wonder why I do THIS to myself.
I want to grow. I want to do better each time. That doesn’t happen by sitting around congratulating myself.
So, yeah, I’m pretty stoked about my analysis. There are things to grow. Success leaves clues. I spent time looking for them.
Each piece beautiful
Each distinctly unique
Each one critical
A great short film brought to us by REI. Looks at the challenges and brilliance of women’s climbing. I really appreciate their viewpoints and ideas about how toopen up climbing, as well as the world.
https://youtu.be/DPe-T91TQ54
Daring to speak words,
Empowerment of progress.
Seeking real change.
Today’s anger spent
I seek to make things better
Progressing forwards.
I’m getting a lot done, but accomplishing very little. I don’t find it satisfying. I enjoy checking off to-dos, but without direction it’s, ultimately, empty. Way too many directions in my life. I need focus.
Examples: the hundreds of email news sources I subscribe to. And the dozen, or more, tasks I load into a day. That’s a weakness in the electronic-tools age. Keeping those emails to read “later” is so easy. Or just shuffle those tasks to another day. Then I get to a point where I have several hundred emails waiting to be read. Or I’m spending 15 minutes moving my collection of overdue tasks to today. It all creates a sensation of “spinning my wheels”.
I’m tacking this, slowly, carefully. First, I’m now aggressively deleting email. And also unsubscribing. For things I’ve been subscribed to for years, I feel discomfort. But with so many I haven’t even opened in years, it’s just time. Time to accept that, though I see the value, I don’t feel the value. And give myself permission to feel that. Also, I’m culling tasks. Some have lingered for months, even years. My mind is telling me something here. Time to listen.
The next step for me requires stepping back, reprioritizing and focusing. I know it will be painful. Selecting that which I won’t do; ugh. I want to do everything. I see, though, I can’t do even half of everything well. Quality is important. Much more so than quantity. Time to embrace it, and live it.
Perhaps I’ll embrace an agile approach. Re-evaluate every few weeks/months. Ensuring I’m meeting my needs; watching for those needs to change. I like that idea. Allowing my life to flow, fluid-like. Accepting my needs will change, and seeking to be ahead. Rather than waiting until I swirl into misery. There’s zen.